Day 36

Scripture: Ps 131, 132, 140, 142; Jeremiah 26:1-16; Romans 11:1-12; John 10:19-42


Scripture standout: John 10: "²⁷ My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. ²⁸ I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand. ²⁹ My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all^[b]; no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand. ³⁰ I and the Father are one.”


Morning thoughts: Here's a quick morning purge of deeding guilt. On Tuesday night, I was like that sheep not listening to its master's voice. I chose to act like my kids do sometimes when they selectively ignore more my requests. Even worse, I back-talked.


 I was absolutely, positively STARVING Tuesday night. I had to take pictures at an evening event and then attend a vestry meeting before my day was done. Bushwacked I was — and with a loud, rumbling tummy to boot. So on my way to collect Ben from Boy Scouts, I did something I NEVER do. I wheeled my whip into Taco Bell. I ordered a Beef Burrito Supreme and handed over my $2.45. While I was paying, I heard a loud — well, let's just call it a loud urge. The urge said, "you're never in a fast food drive through lane. Here's your big chance, Sue. Here's your big opportunity to pay for the meal of the person behind you."


"But the timing's off," I sneered back. "The person behind me is still ordering! I can only sit here with this hot burrito in my lap for a minute without looking like a freak. Look, oh for crying out loud, he's still ordering. I can't wait forever. I have to go. I'm going."


And I went off into the night's rat race for Boy Scout pick up and lunch-making and coffee-preparing and homework-helping — buritto-eating. I felt awful as I left the parking lot and spied the would-be-deeded at the drive through window. I heard my marching orders, and I ignored them — and I did it all for a greasy, warm, terrible-for-me burrito. What a missed opportunity.